Booooring Sunday

I'm watching PSV Einhoven vs Ajax Amsterdam on TV. It's Sunday and it is once again very cold outside. It's Sunday and once again a day with feelings of disillusion and confusion. I still can't let it go - uni starts tomorrow. I'm already tired of seeing all the status updates on facebook and the twittering on this subject.

This has been a very short summer. There has not been many opportunities to see friends on a regular basis. Everybody is busy with their own lives, obligations and relations. A very clear message and sign is that this is a new phase in life. This is one of the most obvious proofs that I and the people around me now are adults. I saw on facebook that two of my old classmates from middleschool are pregnant, and there are already several others from my old class that are parents today, at the age of 21-22. Good or bad, this is the truth. I can honestly not see myself somewhere near a life like that for the coming years. There are so many things I want to experience before those kinds of things and before heavier commitments in life. That's just the way I am.

This lost year feels so wasted in some strange way, although there has been a lot of learning for me during this time. No doubt. But still it is always some source of disappointment and frustration in the middle of all of this, something that annoys me deep down inside. Annoying but there's not much to do about it.

The game just ended. PSV won 4 goals to 3.