[Jänner] (= January)

It's (almost) late January and the semester is almost over. I have two large exams, one minor exam and one deadline left before the semester break in February.

It is interesting that I after a week and a half back in Austria feel as if I never left the place at all. As the semester is reaching its end, a lot of people pack their bags to leave the country. Some to return soon for the second semester, while some are rounding up their studies at Johannes Kepler University. It's sad in a way when people you have got used to leave. You know deep inside that the chances of seeing some of your friends again are minimal, almost non-existent. It's sad, but at the same time something normal and typical in life.

It's Wednesday and I have to finish my last big paper for this semester within the coming 48 hours. Time to leave and be a little more productive.

Thank you for reading.

Reaching the end

It is slowly getting time for me to return back to Austria after a little more than three weeks in Sweden again. It has done me well to see my family and a limited number of my friends again. It has done me well to come back home and sleep in my own bed, drink my coffee out of my own cup and take a shower in my own shower. I know the streets, I know the language and I know my life in Sweden pretty well by now. I have not had to live like a stranger like I did during the three months in Austria. However, despite my happiness about being back home, I am happy about returning to Austria. I am happy about returning to my girlfriend, to my friends and to my studies. I am returning back to Sweden shortly, so as soon as I start feeling homesick I'll already be sitting on a plane back home again. No worries in other words. It's only three weeks left of the semester. There are a few parties left to attend, a prom and possibly one major football game. 2010 has just begun!

Echoes from the past

The days are getting longer and the weather is steadily improving for every week that passes. It makes it even harder to stay inside (which is a good thing I guess). The only problem is to find something interesting and decent to do outside of the house. Everybody I know is busy with their own lives. It's either work or studies, and I have no problems with that. I just need to get my ass out today. Wherever, I don't care. I just can't sit home and wait for the day to be over anymore.

I had a few acquaintances from my past yesterday, and it struck me this morning that I am pretty affected by these acquaintances, more than I thought I would be. It can be described as a reminder of how well things were twelve months ago (and during most of 2008 as a whole), and also as a reminder of how different things are now. Not to mention that I felt slightly anxious about returning to a place where all friends are gone. There will only be strangers left. Suddenly I started to feel how much I have been missing the life as a student. I started to miss my friends from university.

I cannot see any clouds on the sky today and I feel like leaving house soon. I'll see what I'll do. There are some things I need to take care of first.

Have a nice day.

Sunny Friday evening

The sun has been shining today and I have had peace and quiet. I spent a significant amount of time of the afternoon on the phone with friends that I haven't heard from the last two months, and I spent a couple of hours with an old friend, chitchatting and talking about life in the warming sunshine on this beautiful spring day.

The conclusion of the day is that life is a bitch for everyone more or less. Nobody lives a sunshine story life. It's all about how you manage to dodge through life's many mysteries and miseries. The good times are what's worth to live for, and it's also what you yourself take with you. Everything else is somehow unimportant.

Tomorrow will hopefully be another beautiful day. The sun will be shining and I will hopefully get to spend some time with friends I haven't seen in a while. Unfortunately, someone very significant won't be around me (yes, I know that I repeat this in almost every post, but it's because it means so much to me!). I miss my girlfriend and I wish that I could be with her. I miss her so much!

I think I need to make some travel planning soon. I need something to look forward to. I need an environmental change. Most importantly, I need You.